Hello! Thank you for checking out my blog. This first post is a bit intimidating. Setting up this blog has been a labor of love. I’m still finding my footing.

I wanted to start this blog because in January of this year, I checked myself into the mental hospital. I woke up one Wednesday morning and realized that I just live in a constant state of panic and I didn’t want to live like that anymore. All I wanted to do was disappear. I felt like everyone would be better off if I wasn’t in their life. I didn’t want to really die. I just wanted to move somewhere else, where no one knew me or could follow me. And I knew if I kept going down that road I could turn suicidal. So I made the very touch decision to go to the emergency room and tell them I wanted to commit myself to what I call my “grippy socks vacation”.

I’ll talk more about that in the next post but that’s really where the idea for this blog came from. Mental health is still a bit of a taboo subject and I don’t feel like it should be. There should not be a stigma around getting help, going to therapy, or taking medication if that’s what you need to do. Trust me, I’m a self-proclaimed hot mess express and for the longest time, I truly thought I could do it by myself. I did the therapy but wasn’t really honest with myself or my therapist. I took medication but I’d forget it half the time. I kept lying to myself and it landed me in the hospital.

I’m not doing this blog for sympathy. I’m doing it because others deserve to know they aren’t alone. I’m doing it because my son deserves a mom who is the happiest and healthiest version of herself. I’m doing it because humans were never meant to do it alone and if I can grow just a tiny community simply doing one of the things I love doing the most (writing), I want to at least try.

It won’t be perfect so if there are any suggestions, please leave them in the comments. I do plan on getting a “contact me” or “subscribe” page soon but this is all a learning curve for me. I look forward to connecting with everyone!